Iftar

Last nite, my eldest brother and wife came over to my apartment for iftar. We at home had prepared some meals including chicken rendang, gulai lemak labu kuning, sambal belacan, ikan kembong goreng, udang goreng tepung and agar-agar santan dan gula melaka. Sounds many but we made it in small portions. I bought murtabak at pasar ramadhan as mak wanted it and i bought air tembikai for my self. Nampak sedap gilerrr!!!

It was a simple iftar event. We then congregated for Isya' and tarawikh prayers. As I'm still on medication, 8 rakaat of tarawikh were already too much for me. Later last nite, my second brother came over to switch back our cars. I think he finished one tray of the agar-agar - his favorite.

Never Ever

A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on

Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make
the same mistake again

You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter,
either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find

My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate

I'll take a shower, I will scour
I will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah

Vexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking
questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling
won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got
me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more

I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.
Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs right through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking
questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy,I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got
me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah,
Ijust don't feel right x4

You can tell me to my face,
You can tell me on the phone,
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know
You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can write it in a letter, babe
You can write it in a letter, babe

Tattoo

Oooh... Oooh... Ohhh..

No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
My head in the fire,sooner or later I get what i'm asking for

No matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed.
The truth is a stranger
My soul is in danger,I gotta let my spirit be free to,
Admit that I was wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.

Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do,
You're on my heart just like a Tattoo
Just like a tatto, I'll always have you.

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking ties.
When I look in the mirror
Didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do,
You're on my heart just like a tattoo, I'll always have you.

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you.
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do.

Writing

It has been a really long time since I last wrote in here. Too many distractions I guess. Many things have occurred in th epast several months. I'll write them here whenever I have the time.

Kesilapanku, keegoanmu

Besar kesilapanku besar lagi kesilapanmu
Hampa yang kau rasakan hampa lagi perasaanku
Kau cuba menyatakan
Aku menbuat kesilapan
Yang tak mungkin kau maafkan lagi
Ku tak mungkin kau perlu di sisi

Besar kesalahanku besar lagi keegoanmu
Berkali ku beri alasan berkali-kali kau menolaknya
Kau ingin ku menyatakan
Diri ini bagai lilin
Dan terbakar oleh perbuatanmu

Suasana sepi kini menambahkan bening
Di dalam hatiku
Mengadil silapmu biar di jiwamu aku telah tiada
Di waktu begini diusik kenangan silam
Yang bertandang
Lalu ku biarkan
Ia menabahkan hati ini

Kekasihku cukup engkau buat ku begini
Luka ini usah engkau berdarahkan kembali
Aku masih cinta padamu
Aku masih setia padamu
Kembalilah engkau padaku seperti dahulu

Di dalam rindu ku menangis
Di dalam kalbu ku terasa
Teringatmu di kala derita
Yang memisahkan kita

Di dalam sedu ku berseru
Yang terukir di dalam hatiku
Kekasih bukalah pintu
Untuk sekali ini
Aku cinta kepadamu

Happy 32nd Birthday to Me...

Today, I'm becoming one year older - 32 years old. To me, age is just a number. However, it marks a notch higher in terms of maturity and thinking level. I'm proud to say that I'm 32. Believe me, I do!!

There were so many things that had taken place throughout the past one year. Many of those are quite heartbreaking, demotivating but there were also events which pushed me to the edge, required my patience and perserverance. All these have made me braver in embracing the life challenges.

I'm sure, the new coming year won't be any easier but I hope Allah will grant me the strength and endurance to go through all of them.

Last but not least, I love my self and all those around me!!

I'm a MAC novice

Last Wednesday (28th November 2007), I went to Midvalley Megamall to pick up my new pair of Emporio Armani's glasses. I thought I was only going there for awhile since it was already 3.30 when I reached the mall. Somehow, I had the urge to buy myself a new lipstick. I wandered around Jusco to look for potential target but I was kinda frustrated. But, I haven't tried any MAC. So, I took all the troubles to go to MAC outlet.

I asked for an opinion from one of MAC staffs on the suitable lipstick color. She recommended several colors and I settled with TWIG. Later I asked for a matching lip liner. As I was about to make payments for the two items, my eyes were captivated by the unique royal design of MAC's eyeshadow's collection - ROYAL ASSETS.

Daya, the friendly and helpful staff offered me to do a quick sort of make-over using that collection. Indeed, I looked different and I was happy with it. Guess what?? Another item in the cart. Hehehehe....

I am happy that I have found my new range of makeups. I'm planning to have the foundation and a few other items for my next purchase. To Daya, thank you for assisting me.