How Could An Angel Break My Heart

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me

How could an angel break my heart?
Why didn't he catch my falling star?
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart...
How could an angel break my heart?

I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me...

How could an angel break my heart?
Why didn't he catch my falling star?
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart...
How could an angel break my heart?

Oh my soul is dying, it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me

How could an angel break my heart?
Why didn't he catch my falling star?
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart...

How could an angel break my heart?

List of My Possible Cookies

By the time I'm writing this entry, there are only about 5 more days before Raya. And I still have not started baking any cookies. Uhuhuhuhu.....

Well, dad already bought me a new oven. And I've promised my mom I will make some cookies. So now, I'm browsing through several recipes for me to experiment. Mind you, I haven't been baking anything for close to 10 years. But, with my keen interest in cooking, I'm sure everything will be at least OK.

The list of cookies:-

1. Biskut Mazola
2. Honey Cornflakes
3. Biskut Makmur
4. Jam Tart
5. Pineapple Tart
6. Rempeyek Kacang
7. Semprit/Dahlia

So, wish me luck!!

21st of Ramadhan

Today is the 21st day of the Ramadhan of 1429 Hijrah. The time flies so fast. There are only about 9 days more before 1st of Syawal 1429. I have not pick up my baju raya from the tailor. I have not buy any kuih raya yet. The flowers for my mom have not been surveyed. The curtain for the sliding door also, have not been bought. I guess, I'll be doing much stuff really towards the end of the time. But it's ok. I work better under pressure. Yeah right!!

I have few things to settle before I go for a break this coming Friday. So, I really need to focus so that things will flow smoothly.

Superwoman

Early in the morning
I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee
Has its sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy
Your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss
That used to greet me

Now you say the juice is sour
It used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder
If you're talking 'bout me
We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me, ooh, baby

I fought my way through the rush hour
Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner
Will be waiting for you
But when you get there you just tell me
You're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper
And you don't want to talk

You like to think that I'm just crazy
When I say that you changed
I'm convinced I know the problem
You don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I'm not your superwoman (Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down (Hey)
And think that everything's okay
(Don't let me down, don't you let me down)
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human, yeah)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token (Ooh, ooh) of love from you to me

Oh, baby, look into the corners of your mind
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return love to me
I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, oh, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me (Oh, no)

If you feel it in your heart
And you understand me
Stop right where you are
Everybody sing along with me
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo

I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you got to be sweeter to me, oh, ho, ho
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
I need love
I need just your love

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down (You can let down)
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional (Hey, hey, hey, hey)
Hugs as a token of love from you to me
I'm not your superwoman

Unfaithful

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh Anymore (anymore)

Iftar Invitation Part II

During the weekend, I had two consecutive days of iftar invitation. Saturday - Nyah's house and Sunday - Abang's house. For iftar at Nyah's, I cooked asam pedas ikan parang and tepung talam for a dessert. For Abang's house, I brought them gulai kawah (kari laaa) daging and buah melaka.

We performed our tarawih prayers there after breaking fast. All in all, those were two enjoyable and relaxing get-together for the family. No crisis, no bad incidents, all well behaved, if I may say so. Hehehehe..

Unfortunately, my sister, Yang and her family could not join the events since she lives a bit further than us and plus she has a proposal to be submitted on Monday - today.

p/s: Pictures are from the internet.

Reduce the oil price before it's too late

Today on newspaper - Perdana Menteri, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi berkata, harga runcit minyak petrol dan diesel mungkin diturunkan lagi sebanyak 15 sen daripada harga semasa, jika harga minyak mentah dunia stabil di bawah paras AS$109 setong sehingga akhir tahun ini.

If Pak Lah reads my blog, this is what I want to tell him - reduce it now!! Government can always increase it up when the current price goes up. With the regular fluctuations of the oil price, it is actually a benefit to the consumer at large to enjoy lower price of oil based on the current market price. Otherwise, when are we the consumer could enjoy that?

Pak Lah, the mechanism that you'll need is quite simple - have a fixed amount of subsidy - say 30 sen a litre. Set the price based on the current market price minus the subsidy i.e. 30 sen. Do this maybe once a month. In overseas (I've seen this happened while I was in US), price changes everyday. So, i think it's fairer to the consumer and also to the government.

So Pak Lah, would you consider my suggestion??

Invitation for Iftar

For the weekend, I've got two invitations for Iftar. Both are from my brothers. My second brother invited first. I guess, my eldest brother has to reschedule it to another time though. I wonder what would be the menu?? hehehehe...

Mulanya Di Sini

Tibanya di sini
Bagai terulang lagi
Kisah yang indah
Di antara kita berdua

Sehingga di sini
Tiada berpaling lagi
Kita berteman
Seiring jalan dan sehaluan

Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai

Mulanya di sini
Ku kenali dirimu
Sehingga kini
Sehingga ke akhir waktu

Akhirnya di sini
Ku kenali hatimu
Sehingga kini
Kita akan terus berlagu

Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai

Di hadapan kita ada jalan
Menuju di kejauhan ada sinar menanti
Di penghujung perjalanan ini

Oh... sambil bernyanyi
Mendendang senandung yang syahdu
Riangnya hati dan indah duniaku

Cough

I'm having really bad cough since a week ago. I've taken my medicine but still not cured... i need a good tip!

Untuk Selamanya

Andainya ku pergi
Usah disesali
Kerana ku sangsi
Adakah cinta masih di sini

Andainya kau tahu
Ku mencintaimu
Ku pasti dirimu
Tak akan tega melukaiku

Sampai bila akan begini
Menyimpan rahsia hati
Relakanlah aku pergi
Walau cinta masih di hati
Dan airmata menemani
Langkahku yang semakin tak pasti
Membawa kelukaan ini

Bila sampai waktu nanti
Ku harap kau kan mengerti
Mungkin bahagia atau derita
Takdir ku terima
Tuhan tunjukkanlah
Cahaya kebenaran
Kenangan bersamamu
Kan bersemadi
Untuk selamanya

Bicara Manis Menghiris Kalbu

Satu per satu teman
Ada disekeliling mu
Satu per satulah jua
Tinggalkan diri mu
Cumalah aku sahaja
Yang masih lagi bertahan
Memendam rasa

Bulan madu yang indah
Sudah sampai kehujungnya
Engkau pun mula berubah
Dan beralih arah
Kata-kata manis
Tiada lagi ku dengar
Hidup ku pula makin tawar

Tiap bicara manis
Bagaikan selumbar bisa
Kau tanam di jiwa
Tak terlihat oleh pandangan
Mata mu

Tiap bicara manis
Memujuk dan merayu ku
Tak usah berlalu
Dan merajuk bawa hati pilu

Andai sudah tiba masa
Dan tiada jodoh kita
Biar kita berpisah... dari merana

Tiap bicara manis
Bagaikan selumbar bisa
Kau tanam di jiwa
Tak terlihat oleh pandangan
Mata mu

Tiap bicara manis
Memujuk dan merayu ku
Tak usah berlalu
Dan merajuk bawa hati pilu

Keikhlasan hati ku
Bukanlah untuk di balas
Cukuplah sekadar
Jadi kenangan waktu berjauhan

Tiap bicara manis
Bagaikan selumbar bisa
Kau tanam di jiwa
Tak terlihat oleh pandangan mata mu
Andai sudah tiba masa
Dan tiada jodoh kita
Biar kita berpisah...Dari merana

Iftar

Last nite, my eldest brother and wife came over to my apartment for iftar. We at home had prepared some meals including chicken rendang, gulai lemak labu kuning, sambal belacan, ikan kembong goreng, udang goreng tepung and agar-agar santan dan gula melaka. Sounds many but we made it in small portions. I bought murtabak at pasar ramadhan as mak wanted it and i bought air tembikai for my self. Nampak sedap gilerrr!!!

It was a simple iftar event. We then congregated for Isya' and tarawikh prayers. As I'm still on medication, 8 rakaat of tarawikh were already too much for me. Later last nite, my second brother came over to switch back our cars. I think he finished one tray of the agar-agar - his favorite.

Never Ever

A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on

Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make
the same mistake again

You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter,
either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find

My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate

I'll take a shower, I will scour
I will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah

Vexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking
questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling
won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got
me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more

I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.
Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs right through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking
questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy,I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got
me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah,
Ijust don't feel right x4

You can tell me to my face,
You can tell me on the phone,
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know
You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can write it in a letter, babe
You can write it in a letter, babe

Tattoo

Oooh... Oooh... Ohhh..

No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
My head in the fire,sooner or later I get what i'm asking for

No matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed.
The truth is a stranger
My soul is in danger,I gotta let my spirit be free to,
Admit that I was wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.

Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do,
You're on my heart just like a Tattoo
Just like a tatto, I'll always have you.

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking ties.
When I look in the mirror
Didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do,
You're on my heart just like a tattoo, I'll always have you.

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you.
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do.

Writing

It has been a really long time since I last wrote in here. Too many distractions I guess. Many things have occurred in th epast several months. I'll write them here whenever I have the time.

Kesilapanku, keegoanmu

Besar kesilapanku besar lagi kesilapanmu
Hampa yang kau rasakan hampa lagi perasaanku
Kau cuba menyatakan
Aku menbuat kesilapan
Yang tak mungkin kau maafkan lagi
Ku tak mungkin kau perlu di sisi

Besar kesalahanku besar lagi keegoanmu
Berkali ku beri alasan berkali-kali kau menolaknya
Kau ingin ku menyatakan
Diri ini bagai lilin
Dan terbakar oleh perbuatanmu

Suasana sepi kini menambahkan bening
Di dalam hatiku
Mengadil silapmu biar di jiwamu aku telah tiada
Di waktu begini diusik kenangan silam
Yang bertandang
Lalu ku biarkan
Ia menabahkan hati ini

Kekasihku cukup engkau buat ku begini
Luka ini usah engkau berdarahkan kembali
Aku masih cinta padamu
Aku masih setia padamu
Kembalilah engkau padaku seperti dahulu

Di dalam rindu ku menangis
Di dalam kalbu ku terasa
Teringatmu di kala derita
Yang memisahkan kita

Di dalam sedu ku berseru
Yang terukir di dalam hatiku
Kekasih bukalah pintu
Untuk sekali ini
Aku cinta kepadamu