My New Dream Car

This is my new dream car - MAZDA CX 9.... it's luxury and stylish... 7-seaters SUV ... great huh? Check it out at the retail showroom...

Selamat Tahun Baru - 1430 Hijrah

It's 1 Muharram 1430 H and it's a public holiday. Me just staying at home, trying to sort things out and thinking of going to Tesco in a few minutes.

I have some new resolutions - but I would like to keep them as secrets. Only He knows about it...

Be Delicious - DKNY

Another favorite perfume - Be Delicious by DKNY.

Romance - Ralph Lauren

This is my mostly favorite perfume of all time. It suits my body very well and people think that it smells good everytime i splash some on my body. Love it very much.

Soto Ayam Bayu Puteri

Bahan-bahan Sup

1 ekor ayam
2 batang kulit kayu manis
4 biji buah pelaga
3 biji bunga lawang
5 biji bawang kecil
3 ulas bawang putih
2 inci halia
1 sudu besar jintan manis
1 sudu besar jintan putih
1 sudu besar lada hitam
1 sudu besar biji ketumbar
Minyak masak untuk menumis
Air
Garam

Bahan begedil

10 biji kentang kuning
Isi ayam yang digoreng
Bawang goreng
Garam
Daun ketumbar
Daun bawang
Lada sulah
Lada hitam
Telur

Bahan kicap cili

Cili padi (ikut suka, nak berasap kepala... letakla semangkuk)
Bawang putih
Kicap manis
Cuka
Gula

Bahan lain

Nasi impit
Isi ayam yang digoreng
Su-un
Taugeh
Kacang tanah
Bawang goreng
Daun ketumbar
Daun bawang

Cara memasak

Sup Ayam

Ayam di potong sederhana. Tumbuk hingga lumat bawang, halia dan bawang putih. Asingkan. Tumbuk pula jintan manis, jintan putih, ketumbar dan lada hitam. Dalam stock pot, panaskan minyak untuk menumis. Tumiskan kulit kayu manis, buah pelaga dan bunga lawang. Masukkan bawang yang ditumbuk lumat. Tumis sehingga kekuningan dan wangi. Kemudian masukkan bahan rempah yang ditumbuk. Tumis lagi hingga naik bau rempah.

Tuangkan air, sebanyak mana yang perlu. Untuk soto, kita biasanya perlukan kuah yang banyak. Oleh itu, jumlah air perlulah diletak secukupnya. Masukkan ayam, kacau sup, tutup periuk dan renehkan sup selama 1 jam. Pastikan api gas ditukar kepada tahap rendah (low heat).

Selepas 1 jam, keluarkan ayam dan biarkan sejuk. Pada masa ini, boleh la ditambah garam untuk memberi rasa kepada sup.

Ayam yang dibiarkan sejuk perlu dicarikkan halus-halus. Setelah selesai, masukkan semula tulang-tulang ayam yang berlebihan ke dalam periuk sup. Isi ayam yang telah dicarik ini perlu digoreng sedikit dengan minyak untuk memberikan aroma dan rasa yang lebih enak. Isi ayam perlu dibahagi dua - satu untuk bergedil dan satu untuk bahan soto sendiri.

Begedil Ayam

Kentang di kupas dan di potong menjadi kepingan-kepingan setebal 1/2 inci. Gaulkan dengan garam dan goreng dengan minyak sehingga kentang bertukar kuning keemasan dan separuh garing. Kentang yang selesai digoreng hendaklah ditumbuk hingga hancur dan boleh dikepal. Di dalam mangkuk, campur kan kentang, isi ayam yang telah digoreng, bawang goreng, daun bawang dan daun ketumbar yang dihiris halus. Tambahkan juga garam, lada sulah dan lada hitan untuk perasa. Gaul hingga rata. Pecahkan sebiji telur ke dalam adunan. Kepalkan menjadi begedil yang comel. (Kalau suka besar2.. sukahati ler.. tapi nanti susah goreng).

Panaskan kuali dengan minyak. Pecahkan telur dalam mangkuk dan kacau telur. Salutkan begedil dengan telur sebelum menggoreng. Goreng hingga kekuningan/masak.

Kicap cili

Cili padi dan bawang putih ditumbuk hingga lumat. Campurkan bahan yang ditumbuk dengan kicap manis, tambahkan sedikit cuka serta gula.

Bahan-bahan lain

Nasi impit seeloknya direbus terlebih awal supaya ianya sejuk dan mudah dipotong. Biasanya kita potong bentuk cube macam nasi impit sate tu. Sukahati la nak potong mcm mana pun. Su-un ni perlu digoreng dengan minyak panas. Kejap je dia dah kembang macam keropok. Tapi harus diingat. Su-un ni tak leh dibasuh. Kalau basuh, sure tak jadi. Ataupun, kalau dibasuh, dikeringkan semula then baru goreng. Taugeh dicelur. Kacang tanah perlu digoreng tanpa minyak. Bawang kecil dihiris nipis dan digoreng - jadi la bawang goreng. Daun-daun ketumbar dan bawang dihiris nipis.

Penyediaan

Biasanya kita makan soto ni dalam mangkuk. So, dalam mangkuk tu, letakkan nasi impit, begedil, isi ayam goreng dan taugeh. Tuangkan kuah dan barulah tabur kacang, bawang goreng, daun ketumbar dan daun sup serta letakkan kicap cili. Hidang panas-panas. ;)

I won something!!

Today is one of my lucky days. I won something just by participating in a quiz on MixFM - Are You Smarter Than a 12-year-old?. That brightens up my day after being stood up last nite. ;)

L.O.V.E

Love is very subjective. It can be love to the parents, siblings, children, friends, spouse, and of course, the ultimate love is to the Mighty Creator (ALLAH) and the Prophet of Muhammad(Rasulullah s.a.w).

When you fall in love, everything seems to be beautiful. You go through each day feeling great and excited. Each time the phone rings, you'll rush to answer hoping that it's from the sweetheart. You'll feel your cheeks rose everytime you talk to him. You can even smile to yourself just by thinking of him. That's how powerful LOVE is. Makes people go insane..

But what about if you don't have love? Or your love has been betrayed? Everything seems to be dark and gloomy. Nothing feels good, even if you are given a first class treatment on any service. You will become annoyed easily and moody. That's how powerful LOVE is. Without it, people can also go insane...

I'm in LOVE. But, i get heartbreaks quite often. So, that's why I'm insane all the time.....

Nasi Minyak Panahan Asmara

This recipe was originated by my father. Thank you Abah for teaching me how to cook this recipe until it become the talk of the town (chewah.. perasan!). But the taste memang sedap. Sampaikan, ada yang minta recipe ni masa raya puasa baru ni. So, I'm sharing with all of you this recipe. Kalau first time buat tak jadi, it's normal. Tapi kalau dah buat selalu, mcm petik api lighter jer....

Recipe for Nasi Minyak (eer... by the way, nama kat atas tu nak glamer jer)

10 cups of Basmati Rice (the best type, otherwise, can use Sunwhite)

1 can of evaporated milk (I use Ideal)

10 cups of hot water

3 table spoon of Pure Ghee

3 table spoon of Cooking Oil

1 table spoon of Tomato Puree

Salt

Raisins

Other ingredients

A

1 stick of cinnamon stick - about 3 inches (kulit kayu manis)

3 seeds of cardamom (buah pelaga)

3 seeds of star anise (bunga lawang)

2 cloves (bunga cengkih)

B

5 red onions

3 cloves of garlic

1 inch of ginger

(Pound these ingredients with pestle and mortar)

C

1 table spoon of cumin seed (jintan manis)

1 table spoon of (jintan putih)

1 table spoon of coriander seeds (ketumbar)

1 teaspoon of black pepper (lada hitam)

(Pound these ingredients with pestle and mortar)

Method:

Preheat your cooking part with Pure Ghee and Cooking Oil. Saute ingredient A until it is fragrant. Add in Ingredient B and saute them until it turns golden in color. Add in ingredient C and further saute until it is fragrant (all together it should not take more than 10 minutes).

Add in the rice. Mix the rice with the sauteed ingredients. Do this for about 5 minutes. Make sure the heat is medium-low. Once the rice is all mixed up, pour in the hot water followed by one can of evaporated milk. Add in the salt (not too much as the ghee is already salty) and also the tomato puree.

This is the crucial part. Make sure heat is turned to be at medium-high. You need to stir the rice in the liquid until the amount of liquid is reduced, just like how you want to cook rice in the traditional way on stove. Once you see the liquid has been absorbed mostly by the rice, turned down the heat to low, put on the lid and let it cooked. I would put something heavy on top of the lid and cover the edge of the pot with towels to make sure the steam remains in the pot and that makes the cooking perferct. Most of the times, I would let it cook for about 30 minutes.

After the 30 minutes, check it out whether the rice has cooked and for tasting. Once it is ready, pour in the raisins (mixed the yellow and brown). Serve it while it's hot and garnish with fried shallots and sprinkle with some chopped coriander leaves and spring onions.

Baked Chicken

Photo credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/sophiafoots/

Recipe

2 pieces of chicken thigh (leave skin on as this will preserve the tenderness of the chicken)
4 table spoon of dark soy sauce
2 table spoon of Mixed Herb (or you can mix on ur own - rosemary, thyme, dill, etc)
1 table spoon of Cajun Seasoning
2 table spoon of Pure Honey
1 table spoon of Sunflower Oil (any oil will do, if you have Olive Oil, much better)

Method:

Mix all ingredients including the chicken into a ziplock bag and marinate for at least 2 hours. Then, preheat your normal skillet (non-stick frying pan or better still the griddle) with very minimal amount of oil. Just to grease your skillet litely. Place the two thighs on the skillet, cover it with a lid. Slow cook the chicken for about 45 minutes to 1 hour. You'll have a perfect baked chicken ready for two.

Once the chicken is ready, remove the skin before serving unless you love to torture your heart with cardiovascular disease! Served best while it's hot. The recommended side dishes would be steamed brocoli and baby carrots and mashed potatoes.

Happy cooking :)

Body Massage

My whole body is aching. Maybe because I have not pampered my self for quite sometimes. I have not even gone to do facials for God knows how long. So, I was telling my self maybe it's about time to go for a body massage. The question is WHEN?

As usual, I'm thinking of hopping into Thai Oddysey. So far, it's the best spa I've ever experienced. So, Thai Oddysey... here I come.....

Back in the office

Today, I'm back to the office after a one-week holiday in my hometown. I got back to my place yesterday evening and reached home around 6 pm. It was kinda sad to leave mak and abah home alone. But it would not be for too long as they will be coming here on Friday evening.

Anyway, I'm already in the office and there are many things to be done. Will continue to write later...

Saving All My Love For You

A few stolen moments is all that we share
You've got your family and they need you there
Though I've tried to resist being last on your list
But no other man's gonna do
So I'm saving all my love for you

It's not very easy living all alone
My friends try and tell me find a man of my own
But each time I try I just break down and cry
'Cause I'd rather be home feeling blue
So I'm saving all my love for you

You used to tell me we'd run away together
Love gives you the right to be free
You said be patient just wait a little longer
But that's just an old fantasy

I've got to get ready just a few minutes more
Gonna get that old feeling when you walk through that door
'Cause tonight is the night for I feeling all right
We'll be making love the whole night through
So I'm saving all my love for you
Yes I'm saving all my love
Yes I'm saving all my love for you

No other woman is gonna love you more
'Cause tonight is the night that I feeling all right
We'll be making love the whole night through
So I'm saving all my love for you
Yeah 'm saving all my lovin'
Yes I'm saving all my love for you , for you

Always

Girl you are to me
All that a woman should be
And I dedicate my life
To you always

A love like yours is rare
It must have been sent from upabove
And I know you'll stay this way
For always

And we both know
That our love will grow
And forever it will be
You and me

Ooh you're like the sun
Chasing all of the rain away
When you come around
You bring brighter days

You're the perfect one
For me and you forever will be
And I will love you so
For always

Come with me my sweet
Let's go make a family
They will bring us joy
For always

Ooh boy I love you so
I can't find enough ways
To let you know
But you can be sure I'm yours
For always

Spring Cleaning

Today is my last day at home as I will be going back to Bandar Puteri tomorrow. Back to the office on Monday, as usual. So, after days of delayed plan, I forced my self to clean up the maid's room. My goodness. Things were everywhere and it was left undone. It took me some times to figure out what I should do first.

I rearranged the beds, threw old stuff, vacuumed the floor, and many others. I should have asked her to clean up during last raya break but I guess, I forgot totally about it. Anyway, the room is all neat now. And I'm having my sinus!!

Maid

My parents maid has gone back to her home country after finishing her two years contract. So now, my parents are having no helper and moi, being the nicest child of the family (chewah!!) offered myself to help them out while I'm on leave. In a way, I'm glad that the maid has gone back. She was a bit of a nuisance to us.

She lied about her age when she applied for the job. She was 50 by the time she went back. In many instances, she had done damages to our property without the courtesy of telling us how it happened. She gave too many excuses when we asked about something. And since she's 50, she thought that she could boss me around too!!

All we are asking from the new maid is her sincerity in doing her job as we are paying quite handsomely to them despite the limited amount of work that they have to do.

So, until the new maid arrives, I am the official MAID at my parent's place... hehehehe....

I Drive Myself Crazy

Lying in your arms, so close together

Didn't know just what I had

Now I toss and turn, 'cause I'm without you

How I'm missing you so bad

Where was my head, where was my heart

Now I cry alone in the dark

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy

Drive myself crazy thinking of you

Made a mistake when I let you go baby

I drive myself crazy

Wanting you the way that I do

Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool, I couldn't see it

Just how good you were to me, oh yes

You confessed your love, undying devotion

I confessed my need to be free

And now I'm left with all this pain

I've only got myself to blame, no

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy

Drive myself crazy thinking of you

Made a mistake, let you go baby

I drive myself crazy

Wanting you the way that I do

Wanting you the way that I do

Why didn't I know it

(How much I loved you baby)

Why couldn't I show it

(If I had only told you)

When I had the chance

Oh I had the chance, oh
I drive myself crazy

Oh so crazy, oh...

Moist Chocolate Cake

I'm sharing my chocolate cake recipe - using steamer.

Ingredients :

250g flour

250g castor sugar

250g salted butter (room temperature)

5 eggs

1 tsp baking powder

1 cup cocoa powder

1 cup brown sugar

1 cup plain water

Method :

In a pan, heat water, cocoa powder and sugar and let it boil for a while until the mixture becomes solvent and thick. Turn off the heat and let it cool.

In a mixing bowl, beat butter and sugar. Add in eggs one at a time. Add in the sifted flour and baking powder. Finally add in the cooled chocolate mixture.

Steam in a round baking pan and you need to cover the pan with aluminium foil. Tie up the baking pan so that the water from steamer would not get into the pan. I would steam this cake for about 4 hours.

Chocolate Topping

50g Salted Butter

100g Cream/Double Cream

250g Cooking Chocolate

Preferably if could use a double boiler. Boil the cream in a pan. Put in the chocolate (broken into small pieces). Turn off heat and stir chocolate until melt. Spread this ganache onto the cooled cake.

Super Poke!!!

It was a long time ago since I last wrote in this blog. As usual, I have had so many things to be done in the past couple of months. Anyway, yesterday I accidentally poked myself with a pair of scissors. On my thigh!

I bleed and I had to have it covered with a plaster. Kelakar la jugak.. sampai tercucuk diri sendiri ngan gunting. I have to be more careful next time.

How Could An Angel Break My Heart

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me

How could an angel break my heart?
Why didn't he catch my falling star?
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart...
How could an angel break my heart?

I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me...

How could an angel break my heart?
Why didn't he catch my falling star?
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart...
How could an angel break my heart?

Oh my soul is dying, it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me

How could an angel break my heart?
Why didn't he catch my falling star?
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart...

How could an angel break my heart?

List of My Possible Cookies

By the time I'm writing this entry, there are only about 5 more days before Raya. And I still have not started baking any cookies. Uhuhuhuhu.....

Well, dad already bought me a new oven. And I've promised my mom I will make some cookies. So now, I'm browsing through several recipes for me to experiment. Mind you, I haven't been baking anything for close to 10 years. But, with my keen interest in cooking, I'm sure everything will be at least OK.

The list of cookies:-

1. Biskut Mazola
2. Honey Cornflakes
3. Biskut Makmur
4. Jam Tart
5. Pineapple Tart
6. Rempeyek Kacang
7. Semprit/Dahlia

So, wish me luck!!

21st of Ramadhan

Today is the 21st day of the Ramadhan of 1429 Hijrah. The time flies so fast. There are only about 9 days more before 1st of Syawal 1429. I have not pick up my baju raya from the tailor. I have not buy any kuih raya yet. The flowers for my mom have not been surveyed. The curtain for the sliding door also, have not been bought. I guess, I'll be doing much stuff really towards the end of the time. But it's ok. I work better under pressure. Yeah right!!

I have few things to settle before I go for a break this coming Friday. So, I really need to focus so that things will flow smoothly.

Superwoman

Early in the morning
I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee
Has its sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy
Your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss
That used to greet me

Now you say the juice is sour
It used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder
If you're talking 'bout me
We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me, ooh, baby

I fought my way through the rush hour
Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner
Will be waiting for you
But when you get there you just tell me
You're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper
And you don't want to talk

You like to think that I'm just crazy
When I say that you changed
I'm convinced I know the problem
You don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I'm not your superwoman (Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down (Hey)
And think that everything's okay
(Don't let me down, don't you let me down)
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human, yeah)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token (Ooh, ooh) of love from you to me

Oh, baby, look into the corners of your mind
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return love to me
I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, oh, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me (Oh, no)

If you feel it in your heart
And you understand me
Stop right where you are
Everybody sing along with me
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo

I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you got to be sweeter to me, oh, ho, ho
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
I need love
I need just your love

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down (You can let down)
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional (Hey, hey, hey, hey)
Hugs as a token of love from you to me
I'm not your superwoman

Unfaithful

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh Anymore (anymore)

Iftar Invitation Part II

During the weekend, I had two consecutive days of iftar invitation. Saturday - Nyah's house and Sunday - Abang's house. For iftar at Nyah's, I cooked asam pedas ikan parang and tepung talam for a dessert. For Abang's house, I brought them gulai kawah (kari laaa) daging and buah melaka.

We performed our tarawih prayers there after breaking fast. All in all, those were two enjoyable and relaxing get-together for the family. No crisis, no bad incidents, all well behaved, if I may say so. Hehehehe..

Unfortunately, my sister, Yang and her family could not join the events since she lives a bit further than us and plus she has a proposal to be submitted on Monday - today.

p/s: Pictures are from the internet.

Reduce the oil price before it's too late

Today on newspaper - Perdana Menteri, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi berkata, harga runcit minyak petrol dan diesel mungkin diturunkan lagi sebanyak 15 sen daripada harga semasa, jika harga minyak mentah dunia stabil di bawah paras AS$109 setong sehingga akhir tahun ini.

If Pak Lah reads my blog, this is what I want to tell him - reduce it now!! Government can always increase it up when the current price goes up. With the regular fluctuations of the oil price, it is actually a benefit to the consumer at large to enjoy lower price of oil based on the current market price. Otherwise, when are we the consumer could enjoy that?

Pak Lah, the mechanism that you'll need is quite simple - have a fixed amount of subsidy - say 30 sen a litre. Set the price based on the current market price minus the subsidy i.e. 30 sen. Do this maybe once a month. In overseas (I've seen this happened while I was in US), price changes everyday. So, i think it's fairer to the consumer and also to the government.

So Pak Lah, would you consider my suggestion??

Invitation for Iftar

For the weekend, I've got two invitations for Iftar. Both are from my brothers. My second brother invited first. I guess, my eldest brother has to reschedule it to another time though. I wonder what would be the menu?? hehehehe...

Mulanya Di Sini

Tibanya di sini
Bagai terulang lagi
Kisah yang indah
Di antara kita berdua

Sehingga di sini
Tiada berpaling lagi
Kita berteman
Seiring jalan dan sehaluan

Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai

Mulanya di sini
Ku kenali dirimu
Sehingga kini
Sehingga ke akhir waktu

Akhirnya di sini
Ku kenali hatimu
Sehingga kini
Kita akan terus berlagu

Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai

Di hadapan kita ada jalan
Menuju di kejauhan ada sinar menanti
Di penghujung perjalanan ini

Oh... sambil bernyanyi
Mendendang senandung yang syahdu
Riangnya hati dan indah duniaku

Cough

I'm having really bad cough since a week ago. I've taken my medicine but still not cured... i need a good tip!

Untuk Selamanya

Andainya ku pergi
Usah disesali
Kerana ku sangsi
Adakah cinta masih di sini

Andainya kau tahu
Ku mencintaimu
Ku pasti dirimu
Tak akan tega melukaiku

Sampai bila akan begini
Menyimpan rahsia hati
Relakanlah aku pergi
Walau cinta masih di hati
Dan airmata menemani
Langkahku yang semakin tak pasti
Membawa kelukaan ini

Bila sampai waktu nanti
Ku harap kau kan mengerti
Mungkin bahagia atau derita
Takdir ku terima
Tuhan tunjukkanlah
Cahaya kebenaran
Kenangan bersamamu
Kan bersemadi
Untuk selamanya

Bicara Manis Menghiris Kalbu

Satu per satu teman
Ada disekeliling mu
Satu per satulah jua
Tinggalkan diri mu
Cumalah aku sahaja
Yang masih lagi bertahan
Memendam rasa

Bulan madu yang indah
Sudah sampai kehujungnya
Engkau pun mula berubah
Dan beralih arah
Kata-kata manis
Tiada lagi ku dengar
Hidup ku pula makin tawar

Tiap bicara manis
Bagaikan selumbar bisa
Kau tanam di jiwa
Tak terlihat oleh pandangan
Mata mu

Tiap bicara manis
Memujuk dan merayu ku
Tak usah berlalu
Dan merajuk bawa hati pilu

Andai sudah tiba masa
Dan tiada jodoh kita
Biar kita berpisah... dari merana

Tiap bicara manis
Bagaikan selumbar bisa
Kau tanam di jiwa
Tak terlihat oleh pandangan
Mata mu

Tiap bicara manis
Memujuk dan merayu ku
Tak usah berlalu
Dan merajuk bawa hati pilu

Keikhlasan hati ku
Bukanlah untuk di balas
Cukuplah sekadar
Jadi kenangan waktu berjauhan

Tiap bicara manis
Bagaikan selumbar bisa
Kau tanam di jiwa
Tak terlihat oleh pandangan mata mu
Andai sudah tiba masa
Dan tiada jodoh kita
Biar kita berpisah...Dari merana

Iftar

Last nite, my eldest brother and wife came over to my apartment for iftar. We at home had prepared some meals including chicken rendang, gulai lemak labu kuning, sambal belacan, ikan kembong goreng, udang goreng tepung and agar-agar santan dan gula melaka. Sounds many but we made it in small portions. I bought murtabak at pasar ramadhan as mak wanted it and i bought air tembikai for my self. Nampak sedap gilerrr!!!

It was a simple iftar event. We then congregated for Isya' and tarawikh prayers. As I'm still on medication, 8 rakaat of tarawikh were already too much for me. Later last nite, my second brother came over to switch back our cars. I think he finished one tray of the agar-agar - his favorite.

Never Ever

A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on

Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make
the same mistake again

You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter,
either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find

My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate

I'll take a shower, I will scour
I will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah

Vexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking
questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling
won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got
me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more

I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.
Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs right through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking
questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy,I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got
me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah,
Ijust don't feel right x4

You can tell me to my face,
You can tell me on the phone,
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know
You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can write it in a letter, babe
You can write it in a letter, babe

Tattoo

Oooh... Oooh... Ohhh..

No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
My head in the fire,sooner or later I get what i'm asking for

No matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed.
The truth is a stranger
My soul is in danger,I gotta let my spirit be free to,
Admit that I was wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.

Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do,
You're on my heart just like a Tattoo
Just like a tatto, I'll always have you.

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking ties.
When I look in the mirror
Didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do,
You're on my heart just like a tattoo, I'll always have you.

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you.
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do.

Writing

It has been a really long time since I last wrote in here. Too many distractions I guess. Many things have occurred in th epast several months. I'll write them here whenever I have the time.

Kesilapanku, keegoanmu

Besar kesilapanku besar lagi kesilapanmu
Hampa yang kau rasakan hampa lagi perasaanku
Kau cuba menyatakan
Aku menbuat kesilapan
Yang tak mungkin kau maafkan lagi
Ku tak mungkin kau perlu di sisi

Besar kesalahanku besar lagi keegoanmu
Berkali ku beri alasan berkali-kali kau menolaknya
Kau ingin ku menyatakan
Diri ini bagai lilin
Dan terbakar oleh perbuatanmu

Suasana sepi kini menambahkan bening
Di dalam hatiku
Mengadil silapmu biar di jiwamu aku telah tiada
Di waktu begini diusik kenangan silam
Yang bertandang
Lalu ku biarkan
Ia menabahkan hati ini

Kekasihku cukup engkau buat ku begini
Luka ini usah engkau berdarahkan kembali
Aku masih cinta padamu
Aku masih setia padamu
Kembalilah engkau padaku seperti dahulu

Di dalam rindu ku menangis
Di dalam kalbu ku terasa
Teringatmu di kala derita
Yang memisahkan kita

Di dalam sedu ku berseru
Yang terukir di dalam hatiku
Kekasih bukalah pintu
Untuk sekali ini
Aku cinta kepadamu

Happy 32nd Birthday to Me...

Today, I'm becoming one year older - 32 years old. To me, age is just a number. However, it marks a notch higher in terms of maturity and thinking level. I'm proud to say that I'm 32. Believe me, I do!!

There were so many things that had taken place throughout the past one year. Many of those are quite heartbreaking, demotivating but there were also events which pushed me to the edge, required my patience and perserverance. All these have made me braver in embracing the life challenges.

I'm sure, the new coming year won't be any easier but I hope Allah will grant me the strength and endurance to go through all of them.

Last but not least, I love my self and all those around me!!