Back to work :)

Assalamualaikum and greetings to my followers,

Sorry that I have been inactive in blogging for the past couple of weeks. Of course, some of you already know the reason and perhaps some of you have not. Revealing the truth, I am now married to my dear husband, Mohd Azrin since 19th April 2013. :)

Alhamdulillah, the solemnization and reception events went very well despite a few hiccups. That's normal I guess. Thank you to all my family members especially my parents and my brothers and sisters who were very supportive throughout the event and for always being with me when I needed them. I owe you all a big THANK YOU!

To my dearest husband, I love you so much and thank you for marrying me and accepting me for who I am. We were once an item and now fate has brought us back together. Allah is so great that only He knows what is best for the two of us. I will love you for the rest of my life and hope you will do the same. 

To my new in law family, thank you for being so understanding and sporting when I am around. I love all of you too. I don't feel my self so much as a stranger when I am surrounded by you. :)

To all my relatives and friends, who atttended the wedding, I am thankful for your kindness though I did not have a chance to meet you personally during the event. I am deeply sorry for that and I hope we could meet later once we have the free time. To those who did not make it, it is also fine with me as I know that you might have other important events. :)

Alhamdulillah, I am glad that this event is over but the marriage is just a beginning. As for now, I am back to my usual routine here and my husband is also back at work in Kulim. Praying hard for me to get transferred very soon so that I could be with him all the time.

Abang, I love you and can't wait to see you this weekend. :)

Signing off with lotsa love,

Puan Makcik Kantin (hehehehe)...

One more week to go

Hi

I have been busier than usual for the past week. And the pressure is on the rise. Maunya tak.. tinggal seminggu jer lagi before my big day. And unfortunately, there are several issues that arise lately. :(

Last weekend, aku balik kampung dengan abang, kak su and uzair comel. Nak menghantar barang-barang dan jugak kemaskan rumah apa yang patut. We went back on Saturday morning and reached Teluk Intan around 2 pm. Along the way tu, kami singgah di rumah Chu di Bidor. Saja nak jumpa dan personally invite him and the family to the kenduri. Sampai dirumah, tengok Abah tak ada. Rupanya depa ke KL untuk AGM Bank Rakyat dan masa tu dah on the way balik ke Perak. So, sampai ajer kat rumah, tengok bilik lintang pukang sebab dok pasang a few things and alih perabot. So, lepas rest for 5 minutes, terus kemas bilik. Pasang langsir, ganti cadar, vacuum and wipe all furnitures.

Penat memang la penat tapi kenala kerja sikit kan. Alhamdulillah, we managed to clear up many things and the whole house. Petang tu, pegi pasar malam dan gerai kuih kg bahagia. Sangat la bahagianya dapat makan food dari tempat sendiri. Malam tu pulak, lepas solat, terus bungkus tuala untuk petugas majlis nanti. Sambil membungkus, kami ada seorang assistant tecik yang sangat la comel. Asyik dok kacau chu na and ayah dia nak buat keje.

Malam tu, I got to know that Pakcik Tukang Kebun nak balik Ipoh and esok nak datang Teluk Intan. Mmm... langsung tak plan pun. Katanya nak bagi balance barang hantaran. So, malam tu dah berangan-angan nak dating ngan dia.. hahahaha.. kome ni.. kasi chance la woiii...

Pagi esoknya, pegi breakfast dengan Kak Mah disertai PTK. Ingat nak breakfast kat Nikmat tapi belum bukak so we headed to Ghulam Rasul. Had roti telur and apam manis kat situ. Borak punya borak, we split after that. PTK bawak myself to his parents house. Saja singgah kejap. First time kau!! Nervous makcik dibuatnya. Tak caya, gi tanya PTK!

Then lepas minum and borak jap, PTK send me back. Singgah plak kat Bandar Baru nak arrange for tepak punya hiasan dan hand bouquet. So, dah siap bayar semua, Jumaat minggu depan just pick up ajer.

Balik rumah, PTK pun singgah kejap coz abah pun ada before dia nak ke majlis org kawin. Minum lagi teh secawan. :)

Tengahari tu, siap barang-barang sikit, dan terus siap balik Puchong. On the way, kami singgah di Sg Klah, rumah Mak Chu Maimun, for the same reason nak jemput personally. Dah lama juga tak ke sana dan sangat rindukan suasana rumahnya tu. Rumah Achik di Sungkai tu kami pegi juga tapi sebab dia kerja, so tak de la singgah.

Sampai Puchong dan almost Maghrib. Penat jangan cakap la.. walaupun tak drive, tapi sebab trip short sgt sampaikan tak sempat sangat nak rehat.

So, sedar tak sedar, tinggal lagi seminggu untuk bergelar orang bujang. Insya Allah, termakbul hajat untuk hidup berkeluarga. Apa apa pun, doakan yang terbaik utk makcik serta doakan agar perjalanan majlis yang akan berlangsung minggu depan semuanya lancar.

Okla.. makcik ni nak sambung marking quiz dan assignment sebab nak return pada student by tomorrow. Pas tu, ada dua bundle exam papers belum settle. Takpe.. tu boleh buat on Saturday. Till the next time, bye. Wassalam.

Signing off,

Makcik Kantin yang juling biji mata membaca jawapan students!!

Letting it out

I am glad that I could let it out of my system today by talking to my dear sister and fiancee. It is not healthy to keep something to your self for a long time. At least, now I feel much better than I did for the past several days. I am wishing my self the very best of luck.

Not in a good mood

I haven't been in a good mood since the past couple of days. Luckily, the workshop on Blended Learning which I attended yesterday was a great one. Surrounded by 11 another sporting colleagues, we had a good session though it is for the whole day. We laughed, joked at each other and of course learnt something new from the facilitators. At least, yesterday allowed me to loosened up a bit.

But, when I came home, all the issues were lingering on my mind. It even disturbed my sleep. I don't feel right. Part of me is rebelling to confront the affected people but the other is trying to cool me down.  I don't know what to do or what to say. If this thing happened in the past, I could have gone mad and just throw my temper tantrum to everybody but now I have mellow down a bit, maybe a lot. So, I tend to keep it inside but it is affecting me mentally and physically. I feel abused. I feel unwanted. Only Allah knows how I feel as I think other people won't understand how and why I feel this way.

I am writing this down is not to let everyone on earth know what I am going through at the moment but this is one way of me letting it out from my system. Praying to Allah is what I have been doing for the past several months. I know Allah is testing me once again. Insya Allah, I want to get over with this matter without any difficulties. Even if they are difficulties, I wish that I am strong enough to go through the barricades.

Ya Allah, grant me the strength, the patience and the perseverance to face this little challenge. Amin.